Yeah, I understand looking, too. Sometimes having a "name for what ails you" is a great thing. It's surely a double-edged sword though :-/.

I didn't realize I had memory gaps until I got a LOT further along in treatment and began to see ways in which I filled in the gaps--and didn't realize that was what I did. For instance, I would insist that I remembered going grocery shopping, but what I really did was to look at the groceries in the cupboard or fridge and fill in all the details of the shopping trip from the clues I saw, such as the store logo on the paper bags. Nothing stuck out as being odd or out of place, so I had no reason to stop and wonder about anything.

BUT if I tried to place myself in the actual shopping process, then there was a blank. I could tell you where stuff was in the store, what had been on my list, etc.....but not from a position of knowing I had been there that day on that trip.

The same was true of huge chunks of my past. I could tell you a lot about how I grew up, but I eventually realized that I was only able to give much of that information because I lived in one place from birth to age 18 and was surrounded by....well, not "memory" cues, but more like "storytelling" cues. Much of my life was very cohesive, so the gaps were easy to fill with mostly real material....If that makes any sense.