I have been going to church regularly. My pastor is a great man. For the funeral, I asked him to speak. He didn't know my Mom, but through our talks he made her come alive again. It was a beautiful service. Lately things have just been getting so hard because there are so many new things happening I wish she could be a part of. Christmas that she missed, she had so many presents under her tree. I have one daughter already and she spoiled her beyond all belief!! Then the birth of my son this past April. She was so excited to hear the news. Oddly enough only two days before she was killed, I stopped over she house to show her the ultra sound of him and tell her we had FINALLY picked a name, Christian. She was robbed of that. I would have wanted her by my side. I also recently graduated from college. Things like that. Things that she should have been able to be a part of. She was so young. I know that she is still with me, I feel her all the time....but still....it isn't the same and it isn't fair. I find myself going through the steps of grieving all over again. Thank you for your support. It means the world to me.