Thank you...
I think that some of us can "not" let ourselves "get" to that point but some of us can't. Due to a different set of circumstances this year I have. I feel for the first time that I have nowhere to turn, the real difference in my feelings this year than other years.

I don't have children at home so they are not at "risk". I keep my feelings from my best friend because it upsets her and she is having surgery next week.

My adult son would in no way be able to cope with how I feel and I have always kept it from him. One of reasons why I developed an eating disorder (I ate my feelings).

So my "hat" is off to one and all that can manage their symptoms to keep them from the point where mine have gotten too. Mine have never been worse.

Sincerely, Freewill