Oh Micheal-
A relationship is a two way street. I realize her infidelities sting like a bee and still you have played some part for that. Maybe it could have been your jealously or controlling behavior that brought her excuses to it, even though in marriage there's no excuse for it, it can be worked though and reconciled. To me love is a powerful healing source, it's just where and who you choose to do it with that counts. I've recently discovered that for me, in any relationship I have, friendship or lover, I've got to have trust first than love if possible. If I ever marry it will have to have both Trust and Love, because I believe I'm worth at least that much.

Because I'm in recovery of a broken relationship and grieving, eating and sleeping are difficult. Resentment prayers are done daily. Exercising as much as possible helps and keeping in touch with my Tdoc helps wkly.

Best wishes in whatever your decision maybe. Leilee