*(((((Phillygirl)))))* soryy to hear that. Please don't take this as an advise, take it like my opinion and point of view. The main reason I wanted off meds was so I can "feel"; I felt the same way you do and I hated it so much. I felt like the best of me was flying away from me.
But talk to your Pdoc, let him know exactly how you feel and what's your goal about it.
Hang in there~