yesterday we had to cut our gum to drain a abcess, it had to be done so we did it ourself, but it started us cutting our arms again, we have not thought of cutting for at least 2 months now and only cut our gum threw neccessity, the problem is we couldnt stop there,

we now have to take antibods (penicillin) which messes with our meds so that we dont get a secondary infection on our gums which makes us drowsy and numb so we dont even feel it when we cut.

we dont know why we are doing this, we are not getting anything from it, no sense of release, we are not to stressed at the moment, we just dont understand why we have reverted back to cutting