I'm sorry for all you have been through. There are good people in this world. It hurts that you were exposed and taken advantage of by the worst. It is not your fault. These men used fear, strength, pressure, drugs to get what they wanted. It wasn't thiers. It your body and you should have the right to chose who you engage in these activites with. All three of these men were bad people. It was their fault. They made the choice to do what they did and I hope you don't feel like it was anything you did or didn't do that led to these events happening. I hope you can get some counseling and learn to heal from these tragedies. You are a worthy person and have the right to chose what happens to your body. These people doing what they did doesn't change that. There should he justice for what they did. You are strong to make it through these events. I hope in time you can be ok with yourself and realize you have the same rights as anyone else. That what they did was wrong and it was thier mistake and not yours.