I haven't been here for a while. My CBT has been going well, and had some great break throughs.
Unfortunately I made a back problem worse last weekend and Sunday just gone I was rushed into hospital because my prolapsed disc had compressed the cauda equina.
Resulted in a Discectomy and a Laminectomy Sunday night, and when I came round from the anaesthetic I was convinced they had given me a boob job lol. Turns out they were just sore as I had been laid on them for hours during the ops.
Flat on my back all Monday due to The Thecal sac being nicked and stitched during the op. Sitting up up Tuesday being made cry by all the visitors and cards from people who care, who I didn't know cared, that I didn't believe I was worth being cared for. I have learned so much from this experience...
home wed evening.
I am still 80% numb, although thank all that is good that I have control of bladder etc.
I'm now on a slump, I've been so gung ho to get home and recover, and I have lost my momentum and now cant stop crying, I'm scared,tired...feeling sorry for myself.