I am having a very hard time accepting that I am me and no one else and that's okay. I hope we both get to happy, healthy places because we deserve it.

Having an attack in public is scary, but if it happens, just tell the people you are with that your heart is racing, maybe. You could even show them your pulse. When people see you in such a state, it is easier for them to understand and sympathize, so if it does happen, it could end up making you stronger and more understood.

Please try to see a T again. its a scary, but needed step. You can do it. Best of luck!