Its complicated Healed....

I have a defense mechanism I developed as a child I suppose that allows me to turn on and off my emotions. We did have a good time. However the fact that she choose not to move with me has me feeling anger toward her. Especially because if it werent for her wanting to sell the house immediatly, I could still have been here and working from home. She lost her wedding ring on vacation and is devestated, I cant help but think that it's a sign. We have agreeded to stay together and try the long distance thing, but I know me and that will be something I will need to work on as "out of site out of mind". I know its juvenille , but I can't help feeling she brought this on herself and she had a choice and didnt choose me. 9 more days and I can focus on work and setting up my new place , as I am letting her take most everything. So I have a bunch of shopping to do and feel like I can keep busy for a good while with that task.... Emotions off and blinders on, just keep swimming, just keep swimming... I hope to find support here over the next few months as i get adjusted to my new life. I'll have my own checking account and money now, we are keeping a few bills together for now, she offered to keep paying my bills ( I'd deposit money to do so ), but I think I need to be a big girl and do it myself. So who knows what will happen, but I'm afraid being 2.5 hours away that chances are not good.