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Originally Posted by granite1
that just sounds so lonely for you mast  do you think he would reject you if he knew you were not the happiest person in the world???
i hope you are writing things down to share with your T when he returns from vacation
i so want to see pictures .my next big project is going to be paper marbling
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It is lonely, yes. But when I tried to tell him in the past, he told me that I was wrong about my own feelings, and I find it hard to argue with that. That's not because he is stupid or cruel or anything - he just goes by what he sees, and he can see very clearly that I am happy and well-adjusted. So I am avoiding the argument (and maybe he is in fact right!). Besides, if he were to find out that I have been lying to him about how I'm doing, he would probably reject me, possibly even leave me. And thirdly, and most importantly, if he were to believe me it would hurt him massively, and I won't do that.
This has been an ongoing conversation with T for several months now. But I am writing things down for when T returns, and it helps me a little.