This does clear things up for me a little. I have plans to "fight back" and will be looking into lawyers next week. I have the focus.. mainly because I know I have to do something. And I am really, really trying to be mad/angry at my husband but I love him so much that for some reason I can't find it in me. (Seriously. I have looked. I just got out of a Mental Health Behavioral Unit after 12 days of group therapy 3 times a day and I still can't find the anger... all I find are questions and realizations that how people act/react are beyond my control.) I'm not giving up.. (I thank the hospitalization for that).. I just can't find the anger. Especially because my husband is still being as nice as possible. Saying and even showing, that he deeply cares for me... he just doesn't want to me married to me.. (and wants full custody of course). I feel like I am getting mixed messages to a degree, I guess. And I love him very, very much. And I know that there is supposed to be that thin line between love and hate and maybe there is something wrong with me that I don't see it and that's why I can't even get angry over this? (Even his parents are "nice" to me and he claims they are worried about what will happen to me after this is all over... I am very, very confused.)