"I've gotten myself to such a place that I can't remember a thing my t has said. I'm not even sure I can remember the reason that I wanted to go to T... Its like when I think about it all...it can't stay in my head... like all of a sudden it's in a foreign language or something."

But I guess its a good thing to keep myself shut down because I'm going to have to take a 2 to 3 month break from T anyway..