I'd like to think I deserve good things. Happiness. A secure job. Money to do things. Friends to do things with. But I never get any of those things, so I mustn't deserve them. If I deserved them, then I would have them.


Yes. I didn't get the job, I was stupid for even thinking I might, and was just disappointed again. And yes, its another day, another day with no improvement in my life, just the loss of more hope and spirit. Nothing to be happy about.


Thank you for the words, but I did not get the job. Therefore, I did not deserve it. I was stupid for trying, because it just got me disappointment. More proof of how much of a failure and loser I am. I keep waiting for something to prove differently, but it never happens. I just want to give up.