You aren't stupid for trying at all, your motivation for trying to better yourself and seeking for what you deserve is something that all of us on here will certainly look up to you for doing!
it wasnt you that didnt deserve the job, it was the job that didnt deserve you!
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Lola Olivia ~ 7/11/11 ~ my reason for breathing
Bipolar Affective Disorder type 2 - (2013)
'Borderline traits'
Dissociative episodes