That is what I have been feeling is like I want to go on a different path. His death makes me realize how short life can be and how unexpectedly a person can die. I want to do what makes me happy in life and not be stuck to some job sitting at a computer 10 hours a day with chronic neck and back pain. Unfortunaly with the economy I am lucky to have this job and it allows me to work from home. What I really love is doing art. I wish I could do that full time and go to shows and learn to market it better. I just want to enjoy my life instead of being stressed all the time. I want to try to go in a different direction and it is interesting other people have felt this way after a loss.