i need to get this out of my head .i watched the first episode of that dont call me crazy and looked up the 2ed but have not watched it. i see so many people saying how awsome it was how they wish they had that help etc.. i just wonder if there is anyone who has had the same experiances i have had with state hospitals and treatment programs. i was in state hospitals and hospitals for about 4 years .not 3 to 6 months and after that residential treatment for 5 years.i was sedated and a lot of the time was unable to function when in the hospital. tied down and restrained .not allowed to get off my bed when there was not anyone who had the time to deal with me.or left in a room. having to go to the bathroom infront of people .so humiliating ,yet i was so messed up i did not even give a crap at the time. it was not help it was maitenance. just keeping me from hurting myself .nothing more .keeping me alive and stable.anyway.it was not all roses and suport for me .i hate remembering all that stuff.i cant get it out of my head . off my soapbox for now. i am sure that some people wouldnt mind that but for me it was hell .everything internal and external