I'm crying a lot. I'm depressed which is usual. My T wants me to only text when self harm is a struggle. I did today but I'm not sure why. What can he do? I self harmed anyway. I'm alone in the world now. My mom and I had a difficult relationship and talked a few times on the phone before she died. My T seems angry at me all the time and I need him now. Things don't go we'll for me. I wish I could slip away without a trace. I'm depleted, alone, and sad. I don't care about material possessions. This world seems devoid of what I need; family, friends, support, love...I don't know what to do.