But when it happens in public, it happens too fast, out of nowhere, i just can't do anything.. I can barely even run out of the room before it's just too much to handle. People wouldn't understand, they never do. I've been more or less forced to tell my teachers about my attacks, but they just ask if there is anything they can do, anything that could help but there's nothing. They're trying in every way, asking me where it comes from, when it comes and I just have no idea. I can't tell them a damn thing, because I don't know myself. I don't know why I got this problem, I don't know why I can't handle school. I have always been a good student. Always done my homeworks and studied hard in every subject, but now I can't even be in a full lecture sometimes. I just can't do it anymore, and I don't understand what's wrong with me. It's hard for me to choose a place to sit. I hate everything about school now. The studies is most interesting, and I like that part, just the learning, but the classes are like torture to my mind and I can't even think about the lunch-time anymore. I can't eat with other people, that is one of the hardest things. I rather just go away and smoke a cigarette or two in the lunchbreak. That feels better for me.