Im a BPD, and feel emotions very intensely (usually)

Thye have been too much to cope with recently, and so i have somehow managed to switch them off completely.

I dont feel anything. Which is a coping method im guessing, and i suppose im a bit grateful for it because ive managed to get through some hard times with this switch!

Has anyone else dealt with this? Recently I dont know if its a bad thing or not, as ive lost all motivation, I feel like a robot and I just keep dissociating from the world. My mind tells me i'm hurt, or i'm betrayed etc so I know how I should be reacting, I just dont feel it and life doesnt seem real to me anymore.