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Originally Posted by x_BabyG_x
Do you want to know another piece of advice that changed someones life for the better?
Can you read my signature that says 'There's a difference between believing that you can't, and knowing that you can..?'
One of my old T's said this to me one day and all of a sudden I started to understand my frame of mind. Believing is a state of mind that we develop cognitively, it just tells you that your holding on to alot of negativity and not facing the reality of things. Step out of your mind and face the facts honey, change that negative belief and match it with the positive 'knowing' that the rest of the world see you as. xx
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I know what you are trying to say, but I don't see how it applies here. I don't know that I can. You say face the facts. The facts are that no one sees it, my best friend left me, I have been screwed over majorly for jobs in the past two months. As in call from the boss, we'd love to have you here please apply, and then I don't even get called for an interview. I interview for another job, I think everything goes great, yet no job. So obviously I wasn't good enough. What I am, is not good enough. Those are the facts. so how am I supposed to be positive and "know" i'm good when everything proves me otherwise? The rest of the world doesn't see me as good, or I would have these jobs, or I wouldn't be losing my friends. That is the reality.
Now, I list these few examples because they are the most recent. The truth is it has been 5 years now of constant downhill. Lost jobs, losing supports and friends, hubby attempting suicide, trying to retrain and can't get a job, promises of full time that end with firing, every. single. thing. I get hopeful for not only doesn't turn out, it is worse than I could imagine. What other reason could there be for 5 years of this with no let up, than I don't deserve it? Why wouldn't I deserve it? I mustn't be good enough.