I have been thinking about this topic since last session, and I just read your post. I did what some may call testing T, but I don't think I am testing him. It took me a long time thinking about it until I finally figured it out yesterday. I think I am looking subconsciously for him to act in a different way than my persecutory part acts with my inner self (it has now become conscious). The problem is, I set it up in a way where T is the least likely to believe what I am saying to him, but where what I desperately need is for him to believe me. I set it up this was because my inner experience is that I don't believe anything I say, think, or feel; or if I do, I am afraid of what I might think. So, I need a model for this part of me to follow; I need T to believe me so I can. That is how it feels, anyway.