I am another person who can definitely relate to your experience.

Being alone is rejuvenating and relaxing. There is no need to conform to the expectations of others. I can be me, the real Didgee. I can also escape in my "odd" interests. Alone time is my time and I love it! Nobody bothers me.

I don't like getting close to people because it takes a lot of effort for me to express my feelings. I also find most people perplexing.

Usually, I need to socialize once a week. I have a few acquaintances, family and one very good friend, I can choose from. If not, the internet fulfills my need.