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Originally Posted by breath-of-fire
It has been zero days since I have SIed but I don't cut. My SI is impulse control disorder so sometimes I don't even notice I do it because I have been so use to it that I kinda have ignored it or don't feel it anymore. I have dermatillomania. It is aka compulsive skin picking. Is it just me in the SI area that doesn't cut as si? I just was wondering that... My goal has lately to reduce picking. So far I am down to about picking once or twice a day but before it was at leat twenty or so.
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Wait, is that SI or is it like OCD or something differently completely? I mean technically it is "self injury" but I'm not entirely sure it's like cutting or burning. I don't think SI is ever by nature compulsive or automatic. It's never been like that for me. It's something I chose to do in the same way an alcoholic chooses to drink as opposed to someone with restless leg syndrome who automatically shakes his/her legs. SI is a self destructive coping skill that we developed to deal with certain things. I'm not trying to undermine what you are suffering with or say "that's not real SI" or anything. I'm just curious as to how you and everyone else defines this.
It's been nearly 3 weeks for me but I don't think I've stopped for good. Actually I know I haven't stopped for good. I'm not there yet.