I recently stopped eating...Im obsessed with the number on my scale and it's the biggest secret I have right now. If I eat I make sure It's not a lot of calories. It kills me because I've been taught that doing this is bad. I just can't stop I like the sort of emptiness in my stomach. I sound Horrid. My parents havent found out because I try to stay in my room and act like I'm asleep if they cook. If I eat too much..I use laxatives. It hurts like hell. What is this? For ex. My boyfriend came over and my parents bought us chinese. I was pissed off because I would have rather them cooked. I thought of all the grease and what not..2 months ago I would beg for chinese food. When my boyfriend left I hurried to take the pills. Can someone tell me what is wrong with me?..