Hello Heather11. I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. I know that it is exhausting dealing with anxiety and depression. It's good that you are able to rise above it sometimes. You know what you are capable of and that should give you a little confidence.
It may be time to see your dr. again and get your medications adjusted. How long has it been since you saw him? I think it's necessary to see your dr. periodically because our bodies change a little all the time.
Your reality is as much you triumphs as well as the times that are difficult so please don't downplay your strengths. I am in awe of any parent. I don't know how they find all that strength and patience.
Just post here as often as you need. We will be here to listen.