I'm pretty sure no one in my life cares, though. I'm supposed to be there for everyone else - I am the responsible, steady, reliable one who gives a crap and I feel like they all soak it up. But if I need something or somebody, its like I'm asking for too much, I'm out of line, I need to get over myself, I should suck it up, it's not a big deal etc etc That's just the attitude I feel towards me.

I wish I could just be open and have people care, but I've been there and done that. It always blows up in my face. The problem for me is more the ruminating thought that pops into my head over and over again. Was just wondering if others experience that kind of thing....