At first i wondered what the issue was with you having sexual interests - then i read of your confusion about your religious views. You sound uncomfortable with just being who you are in general and i propose that therapy is probably the best way to continue with exploring concerns of that nature. As i'm sure you're aware, foot fetishism or whatever you would like it to be called is neither unusual nor solely experienced by those without religion. I'm not saying that ensures you will find peace with the subject eventually but as you can see, statistically it IS possible. I hope you find hope in that. I want to finish this response by examining your use of the word 'borderline' - that usually implies something negative, something which is neither one thing nor another. If you're supposing you're uncertain of whether you're abnormal i wonder what it would mean if you are - so you like feet, you may not believe in God, does that impair your ability to be a valuable, productive member of society? We've discussed it doesn't make you inhuman either so i think it's fair to assume the only real trouble caused by this issue is damage to your self esteem. You have a right to be YOU whatever that means - here's hoping therapy helps you develop ways of coming to terms with that.