I have had this same experience and it is awful. I also have flashbacks but very seldom. In these dreams and flashbacks I was being sexually abused at a very young age...2 or 3 years old and pre-verbal somewhat. Still, it haunts me and I would like to try and work through it instead of repressing it. I certainly can not tell you if you were abused or if it's a dream. For me, I know in my heart that it happened and it was my Dad. I am going to a hypnotist when I get up the nerve.