So I had a big blow out with my husband today. It started out that he was upset I spent money on a pair of sneakers for my son. He said its ridiculous. I bought my son sneakers for the start of the school year because I know it will be crazy in a few weeks and I thought it was easier for us. They are a pair of air Jordan's, but I found them at a great price on amazon. My husband flipped out and said that he told me he doesn't want me to spend money on a big name shoe, that he thinks its crazy you pay money for the name. He said then its not about the money it's the principle that he had told me in the past no more "name" shoes. Oh but I could get him Nike shocks. Makes no sense.
Then he said that he would send them back or cancel the order. That he was going to tell my son. I started to get emotional which I usually never do in front of him, but the past few days have been hard with dealing with so much and having tension between us because of my mom. I said please don't be cruel. It's a pair of sneakers. He said I was being sneaky about it. I said your crazy. You would have seen him wearing the shoes to begin with and I told you that I bought him shoes for school. Then this led into a fight about my mom and how he absolutely will never see that woman again and how if I want to I can go but he won't. I then brought up how unfair he is with me. That I just go along its whatever he wants or needs. I mean, he bought a brand new tv, ok it was a good price, but he just brought it home and set it up on Father's Day. Said it was his gift, even though I bought him a watch. Anyway, it was ok, I know it made him happy and he does need some happiness, since lately things have been so stressful. But I never complain. I told him its unfair that I have to put up with his ex wife and children. He then goes into the whole he has no control over those things. I said its ok because I care for you and we can work on these things but can't you have feelings for me and see that this is important and help me? He just won't budge. So that was that. He then decided he was going to go into work. He's been gone all day and he is still not back. It is almost 7 pm, here. What a nice way to spend a Sunday. Again, its ok because I know he needs time to catch up with work, but he doesn't care enough to fix our issues. I trid calling him and he blew up at me, then hung up. I sent him a message saying that I wanted to talk things out and we need to be healthy together. It's no use he hasn't reesponded. So I got up enough strength and took my kids to the deli for lunch then came home and played games with them. My son thinks my husband hates him. It's really sad how my husband can be so selfish sometimes. It hurts because my husband can be so giving and caring especially to the children, but when he gets upset he just shuts down. He probably will come home later and not say a word to me. This is how he behaves. A 42 year old man. And he calls my mother ridiculous.
I think they are both being childish and quite frankly morons. I have a mother who doesn't care enough to call me even when she knows my husband won't be home and a husband who shows no support because of his stubborn ways.
Maybe it's the hormones talking now. I don't know. I feel like I'm on a roller coaster and it hasn't stopped so I can get off yet.