I am already feeling lonely. I know (mentally) that I can't stay with someone who is constantly criticizing and belittling me. Yet I miss having someone to talk to. Not that my conversations were ever really appreciated. I always ran the risk of being attacked if I said anything to him.

I don't know how to move on. What to do, how to meet new friends, how to quit wondering if he misses me at all. This must be all crazy codependent stuff. I need a new perspective and maybe.. more mature outlook. Or something. Any suggestions?

FYI, I'm not young... I'm sixty. This was a seven year relationship that ended a week ago when I told him I never wanted to see him again. I moved 700 miles away the next day, so I won't see him. But how do I start over? I don't ever want another boyfriend... I could never trust a man enough after what I just went through. I thought he was the love of my life and he turned out to be a narcissist.