We're deciding to meet for a coffee date next Tuesday. That should give me enough time to get ideas on what I'd like to shoot, but I'm so nervous of trying to decide what I'd like to shoot. I know for sure that I'm not doing anything nude or with a strap on. I'm limited to toys such as a paddle and riding crop, but I don't know if I want to use my paddle on a stranger. I don't mind the riding crop because it is mostly just a prop, but the paddle is meant to be used intimately, it's kinda gross to use it on someone else, even if it's just for a prop. So I don't know about that. I also have to decide what my partner is going to wear, since he doesn't own a uniform. I was thinking of draping him in the flag. If I decide to make him lick my boots, then I don't know if it would count as a sexual experience or not? Luckily I'm seeing my counselor tomorrow and be able to talk about it.