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Old Jul 08, 2013, 07:11 AM
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I was traumatized by a particularly graphic YouTube video back in March, and mentally I just haven't been the same since. I've been recovering on my own alright, but I've recently developed a third round of "head pains" and I'm getting anxious. I'm not sure if talking with a Psychologist would do me any good, I feel that I may benefit from some medicinal help best. I've never seen a mental doctor for help, so I feel like I need some reassurance and advice before going in to see what I feel might be a Psychiatrist? Below are some of the troubles I've been experiencing, in no particular order.

pre-video:
1. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
2. Trichotillomania (eyelash plucking)
3. Mysophobia (fear of contamination)
4. troubles focusing

post-video:
1. Muscle pains in the rear portion of head (migraines?). When the pain comes, my hands feel compelled to touch the area. The pain can loom for days, and masturbation can sometimes be hard to focus attention to.
2. Sensitivities to noises (hyperacusis?). Anything loud and/or repetitive can drive me insane.
3. Sensitivities to visuals. Flickering images, anything visually macabre bothers me.
4. Visually disturbing dreams (monsters, evils, etc) wake me up more often. I also seem to have bad dreams more often.
5. I have seldom flashbacks of that video.
6. I have troubles enjoying 'mature' types of media: TV shows/movies (especially animes), and videogames. Anything that may not have bothered me before, I am much more sensitive to.
7. (in reference to 6) Anticipation of bothersome noises or visuals can be mentally fatiguing.