Its cool! What I meant by that is that when things are going great in my relationship I don't see certain things or even when we're having troubles I still don't see other women. When our issues are at it's peak and life starts feeling like no escape then It's like an "ON" button is hit for me. I'm going to try and stay on her about some form of therapy if not for the both of us than just for herself. She was seeing a therapist at one point but I don't know what happened and she won't tell me. Thanks for the support I really do appreciate it. I'm so use to being the one everyone calls on for help and support.