My pdoc sees my decision to pursue cervical vertebrae surgery as a sign that I'm functioning well, handling difficult decisions well.
I guess we'll see whether this is a good decision or not. I do feel meds are keeping me balanced--I feel sad when bad stuff happens to someone, happy when there are good things going on. No hypomania for over five yrs, a dreadful five-month drop into a depression that brushed up on the suicidal several months ago. That was largely physically-based, though.
The pain continues, but the bipolar disorder does seem in a maintenance state. pdoc!!