Yeah after seeing so many of my uncles and even some women in the clan die from heart attack and strokes at an early age, I am just gratefule I have the chance to take drugs that werent even invented yet for them that are keeping me alive. So I dont see myself as flawed, I see myself as not dead. And the psych meds keep me from killing myself, so again - not dead.

But you raise an interesting point. I think I got a neatness gene from my dad AND a sloppiness gene from my mother. Like they are two separate genes. I think the "glad im not dead" gene is different from the sui gene and the flawed gene, because those can still be expressed. It would be nice if they cancelled each other out, but they dont.