Okay, Jadedbutterfly. What's the plan for recovery now? Made an appointment with
your psychiatrist yet? Things are going to change as you make the effort.

I understand how you feel, but we've got to get the adrenalin going if we're going to
get out of the pit. Assign yourself one thing to do today: (best to make a call to
your psychiatrist for an appointment) and then act.

Lay some clean, fresh clothes on the bed and then make yourself get into the shower--a good, hot one; that will help you get into the mood for action.

If you feel you can't make that effort cut two lemons and squeeze them into about
4 or 5 ounces of water. Drink it; if you aren't better in 4 hours, repeat the process.
That will help clear some of the acid from your system and calm your dread.

Do some meditative reading after your feelings subside from the lemon thing. Then,
try again for the shower.

Best to take the shower first, though, then the lemon juice. Good feelings can follow;
it works for some of us.

You need to discuss the dread with your psychiatrist to start the rollover from
depression. Get that out and things should improve.

I'm thinking about you and know how you feel; I hope you can be your own doctor
for your treatment before you see your psychiatrist.

Take care and keep posting about the feelings; getting them out is helpful.

Sending caring vibes your way.