well I went on trip north , it was nice to get away from the heat of summer. I tried to see as many family as possible , that was stressful in its self ,, had very good visit with my step daughter lots of talk about things of spiritual nature etc.
got my granddaughter completely moved and
some family are in bad shape "self inflicted " very hard to see them like that.... cause I am so lost in my head. I wish I could help.
I did not find what I was looking for on my spirit quest... just confirmation of loss... now that I am typing I guess I am at some ease , I guess..
I am busted up fairly bad ... and I have no memory of how it happened.
just that I was asleep and woke to tremendous chest pain , I guess I must have tried to get to the truck and blacked out cause I hit my head hard "very cut up and bloody" also my leg and arm .. the pain in my chest is bad ii think I cracked my bones up some... it has been 5 days now and the pain at times is unbearable, should have gone to hospital but no ins. and I can barely afford my reg. meds. I wish I had some memory of what happened .
I sure don't need my body broke while my head is so screwed up.
x