Losing abilities has majorly affected me and my life. I don't know how would do in school because I have been absent from it since everything happened. That being said I still deal with a number of problems in my everyday life. I no longer talk about things with connections to other things.... it means I have trouble holding a conversation to the highest extent. I am not longer a lot of things.... BUT!

The one thing I am is a new person that isn't going to give up. I had to battle with myself for so long about how I was worth nothing and that I had nothing to contribute. I was wrong and now I happy to see that everyone has something to contribute.. Instead of talking I now listen and people respect that. Showing up at social events with nothing to say at first made me feel awkward.... but now I feel strong and silent. People will always say thing that are going to bother people with illness. We just have to be that much stronger than them. Not letting what they say or do bother us reflects on us positively, we are stronger. I have found that my true friends are sticking by me. I have found that there is peace in silence.

What this all means is that it's not the end of the line for you. Sure you have difficulties with the mess your mind made, but don't let that be your crash landing before the finish line. Let it be in game adjustment that boosts you above the rest because of what you have to deal with. We all have problems and every time you get up after a failure you're one more step up on the success ladder. It's a mind of mind concept, but one thing we never lose the ability to have will power. No matter how disabled we are, we always have a choice to give up or carry on. Sure you might not get A's or maybe anything close to that.... but I've always said a letter on a piece of paper doesn't tell me who I am. Even if we're not all geniuses we're all people that live on earth together and the happier you can be the better your life will be no matter the difficulties.

Sit back, throw on some tunes, and never give up. There is a place for everyone, we just have to find it.