Okey dokey.... I shut the computer down awhile ago. Watched some t.v. and kept saying to myself "you cannot turn the computer on until you take a shower". It worked..
I even left for a bit... klonopin to the rescue... I realized, after my shower that I would need ciggs tomorrow better go across the street and just do it.
I took my little camera with me, and took some pics of assorted flowers in the courtyard which helped me to stop thinking about all the people outside and in their cars.
mood lifted a bit. See my T on Friday, seems so far away.