hey big sis.

sorry to hear you are having these awful memories/flashbacks. i think they are flashbacks, it is your mind going over events from your past that were upsetting for you - ie the instance you speak of with the person outside - and your mind is trying to make sense of it. it is trying to repair itself, and i definately believe that these memories are a positive step for you. i know they dont seem it but they definately are. your mind will only re-count these events when it is strong enough to deal with them, thats why many people who have been through severe trauma dont remember it for years and years, and sometimes they never will. so be proud of yourself for having the strength to encounter these memories/flashbacks.

and when you get more of these flashbacks, come on here and write them down as you saw it, that way we can help you process and deal with them. it really is a healing process you are going through right now and im glad you are having them because it will make you stronger still and you will eventually be able to let go so much of it. remember that these memories cannot hurt you, not now.

keep up the good work sis, you have nothing to worry about.

take care

simon