daisy, your family are proud of you, and they obviously love you dearly. we never have to prove anything to anyone, we dont have to live life being what we think others want us to be. be your own person, do what you want - career wise - and just take your time dealing with depression. it wont go away easily and it takes alot of hard work. so you need to stop thinking about how your family feel and focus on yourself, and that is the least selfish thing you can do.

i understand your need to impress your family, to make them proud, but you will only make yourself more unhappy doing this all the time. if they know you have depression and they see you work hard to heal yourself, they will be so so proud of you. how couldnt they?

you are not a failure. and you are a good person with a good heart.

the way you can make them proud of you is to chase your own dreams, and to be a happy person. but to do this you need to deal with your depression.

you have come to the right place to do so. once you begin sorting out your depression things will improve, such as your sleep and college work.

being in a car accident is bound to knock somebody back, its a scary experience. its all lessons that you are learning well, and its what we take fromt hese lessons that determine our success in the future.

take care of yourself and remember i am here for you if you need me, just pm me anytime ok.

simon