First it starts with simple insomnia like I have been experiencing the last 3 days. In fact its 330 AM right now. I might have had 1-2 hours of sleep last night if that. No I'm not manic that I know of. Then I start having minor thought insertion, just a thought or two coming from the outside. After that comes the audible voices and visual hallucinations. I also have according to doctors delusions but I don't believe them. I am not going to get into my beliefs here right now but to outsiders they are weird just as I am weird. In the middle of the day its the worst, complete with disorganized speech and behavior. I don't know why the afternoon is the worst. Then if severe enough I engage in self harm including head banging, cutting, and overdosing. Then I land in the hospital. Technically I've been in an episode since January of this year. Is it ever going to end?