So for the past 12 years I was diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder because of these blackouts I would have. I always had trouble believing it. Well an unusual turn of events landed me with the neurologist and he ran an EEG and it confirmed I have epilepsy and as far as we know my blackouts for the last 2 years at least, but probably all of them, are seizures. So I don't have DID but I do have epilepsy. It's been hard to cope with the diagnosis and the epilepsy seems to make my OCD/GAD worse (ts not sure which it is now). So I went back to my therapist from last year. I told him about the epilepsy but he insists I still have DID and when I met with him yesterday that was the focus. But when I talked to him on the phone before my appointment I told him about the epilepsy and when he was convinced it was DID I asked Jim for my sessions if we could focus on my unhealthy thoughts and fears since that is what's plaguing me right now and he agreed. But for the entire appointment he kept bringing up DID. He also gets worked up about my mom being a piece of work. I love my mom and believe me I know her flaws, but she has issues like I do, from her past but she's a very caring person. It's taken years for me to be able to have a healthy relationship with her but he's constantly talking badly about her.

I need to be in therapy. My thoughts are really effecting me and my fear has full control. But t will not give up on the DID thing and I just don't know what to do. Anyone have any advice they would like to share?