Someone87I'm aching for you.

Fear of treatment vs disaster without... I know this rock-and-a-hardplace situation so well.

I hope you have a caring medical team that deserves your trust. We are so dependent on them to look after our interests, and sometimes it is so difficult to trust them, especially when our paranoid fears (and bad experiences) tell us to do otherwise.
As for voices that clearly don't have a good track record of looking after you, I'd do my best to trust the guys in the official uniforms, even if hospitals suck.

Hold on tight.

TS