Thanks so much Mr. Radio that is a great response!

I'm on 200mg of Lemectal. I don't know what to tell my P-doc next time I see him. I told him that it was making it hard to think last time I saw him, but we increased dosage anyways. It has helped my mood. But, now it is hard to think and deal with life. He doesn't want me to change and go into anti-psychotics 2nd generation because that would be what is next to deal with.

I don't know what to tell him next time I see him. I don't want to change meds because of off the concoctions and bad effects they could have.

I'm most worried about senior year because the school expects me to do just as well as the times I did before. They expect me to be fine. Just like this is some bad cold that I came across. I can't get a IEP because that would be stupid at this point.
Everyone in my life expects me to be able to do that same things as I could before. They always say, your a smart girl you'll figure it out, or catch on fast.

What they don't understand is...

Before I was dancing with death, now I am not, but I don't know how to deal with this new life. My new life is limited, but it is for the first time... a life.

Thanks,
Lillyleaf