I can't stand myself today, or my therapist. I've had a very challenging few weeks, doing trauma work that's breaking my heart and crushing my spirit, dealing with my worst enemy, and was just in a hit and run car accident Saturday. I'm having sleep trouble, so short on sleep, and I have ptsd, which pretty much sucks lately!!!!

I've been relying on my therapist a lot, it's been 5 months now, very intensive. Today, after I spent like $300 w/her yesterday she charged me a lot for an email session that she never really responded to, $50 for reading what I wrote and like... 3 sentences, in addition to the session where I paid her to discuss the content, it's like double billing it seems like.

Suddenly, I feel FURIOUS. She's nickeling and diming me, so I can tell she doesn't care about me. It's so wrong, I feel like, it's very fake, suddenly, our relationship. She tells me she cares about me when I ask, but I'm sure she just wants my business. I'm her only regular client right now.

I'm so upset. I've told her every awful thing about me, and I can't stand it right now. I'm feeling completely miserable, and.... I feel like... I've been taken... like I'm the john, seeing the hooker who says she loves him, lying for the money.

I want to quit therapy now. I'm so done with it! I sent her an email, cancelling our next session.