I do trust my T. I've always had a sense of trust with her -- even just with the initial consultation. Afterwards, I knew that I didn't want to see anyone else. And even though at that point I also was a shell.

Through the years, we've cracked through many layers, and now we're here. I got to the point within myself that I really want to change, not just with the ED, but in general and my T has always been there, open to when I was ready. I mean, I first saw her when I was in 11th grade, and I'm now a senior in college...but even back in 11th grade this was going on, just at a lower level, and we had bigger things to work on. But you know what I thought of today? I kicked my OCD's butt (not saying I don't still have OCD, I do, and it still takes up time every single day, but not 3 hours of every single day), so I can kick ed's butt too!