Butterfli...I am SO proud of you! You are doing so awesome!! really making a commitment to beat Ana and you are such an inspiration to others.

Why do you feel you need to face the numbers if they're so triggering for you. I am also triggered by the scale, and so I let the professionals take care of it. My doc and dietician know what I weigh and they don't tell me. They won't let me go up or down more than a pre-agreed on number of pounds without addressing it with me (to figure out what's going on, not to punish me). I trust them to keep me from ballooning up and I don't worry about the numbers anymore.

Cant you work out something similar?

Tell me to shut up if I'm insulting you or being really stupid. I mean well.