So lately me and my husband have been bickering non stop mostly because i always ask him who he is talking to on his phone or on social networking. He gets so angry when i ask but here is why i can't help it.
It all started when i had a hunch, i being his wife, guessed his password for his facebook and began to invade his social network and came across so many conversation he has had with other women. What caught my attention the most was a conversation he had with a woman that goes back to 2011, we got married in 2012. What concerned me was him calling her beautiful at times where he would be home sitting next to me, even on christmas but in january 2013 i was 5 months pregnant and i found him talking to her about how she only lived 45 min away from us and that he promises that he was only expecting and wasnt married....
Before finding this message i had to ask him to put he was married on his social networks...he blames his family not aggreeing with our quick committment but it always raised suspition.
But after finding the messages i flipped, but just tried talking to him about it and he told me he only talked to her when he was bored at workk, instead of talking to me...he says its because i was always sleeping...I WAS PREGNANT. He claims that it wasnt a big deal and "its not like he actually did something"
After that i lurked and hacked his profiles DAILY, until recently. He went and changed every password because "i kept looking for stuff"
That raised suspition even higher
I found a folder in his computer full of nudes from his past
I feel like the typical crazy wife now, i've never been like this before...my selfesteem vanished while pregnant and i havent been able to gain it back at all.
He is always on the computer and is all over other girls.
Am i crazy for getting mad when he "Likes" all of these other womens pictures? I get so heated and have to say something EVERY time i see it. Am i wrong for getting so upset? I feel like his intentions are to get attention from them in return for him liking their pics, like make them feel he might be interested in them even though he has a family. He doesn't even "Like" mine most of the time unless its pictures of our son (now 6 weeks old)
I watch him on his phone from the corner of my eye and he always looks to see if i'm watching before clicking on his inbox or on messages from unsaved number.
Today he got a text from an unsaved number then put the phone down right away then left the room, i asked who texted him and he got so angry i even ask and told me if i cant trust him this will never work...
I told him forgiving and forgetting are two different things and that he needs to earn my trust back but idk how i can ever trust him again when i still have intuition that he is being shady and now i have no way of confirming if i'm right or wrong...
Someone please put me in my place or help me learn how to start trusting him again or this marriage is going to end real soon
There is a lot more i could explain if i need to, i just have a newborn so its hard to find time to type this much in one sitting
Please help!
I still find myself forgiving him but the issue never fades even if i leave him, i always come back.